Today is my birthday and I have a confession to make… I’m weird.
It may be because of genetics, but most likely it is because I enjoy researching the esoteric side of life a little too much. I would be perfectly happy sitting and watching documentaries on subtle energies or reading non-fiction books about astral projection for the whole month of April. Spirituality and metaphysics draw me in more than anything else these days. There is just one problem…
The new perspective on life that I have gained from such research has made it increasingly difficult to fit in to “normal society”.
On a weekly basis (almost daily) I have to motivate myself to “act normal” and fight the urge to give it all up, go live in the woods, and become a monk of sorts. If I wasn’t in a relationship, it probably would have already happened. Told you I was weird!
For a while now I have resisted putting too much more energy into my spiritual development because I was afraid to break that balance between being weird and being normal. So now I have one foot in both doors and that leaves me unable to move in any direction.
For those of you out there who feel this same struggle, I am here to let you know that you are not alone and it is completely okay!
In fact, it is a necessary struggle to continue your growth, but you will have to make a choice someday.
At the 1/3 century mark in my life, I am finally making my decision to pursue my spiritual development despite how “weird” it may seem. I am happy with who I am becoming, and if you would like to find me you will have to come farther down the rabbit hole. 🙂
So now I ask you, the red pill or the blue pill?